Interests:i LoVe PlAyInG sPoRtS aNd SpEnDiNg SoMe Of My FrEe TiMe On ThE iNtErNeT aLsO cHoKe OtHeR sTuFf LiKe HoMeWoRk haha I rOcK oUt On My YaMaHa ElEcTrIc GuItAr and my epiphone acoustic guitar. Expertise:IM a 100% Rocker Boi and yah i always loved rock music my whole live.. some bands that i love are taking back sunday hawthorne heights, yellowcard, story of the year, fall out boy, pennylane, blink 182, new found glory,linkin park, evanescence, incubus, third eye blind, pepper, white stripes, 311, alien ant farm,korn, foo fighters, deftones, saliva, linkin park and evanescence. but other then those ATARIS ROCK haha other bands too like coheed and cambria, all american rejects, matchbox romance, my chemical romance, and too many to name..... Occupation:Student Industry:Media
i'm sick and tired of myself image i made to a lot of people over the past few years. I been like this ever since my dad neglected me when i was a kid, but got worse in high school. So my resolution that begins now is to be my old self..I promise to throw out my dark side and act my natural self. I once thought clearly and its time for me to do that before i ruin another friendship. I will leave death wishes and what not out of my head & mind. I will be the person i was meant to be.. hope you like the new jason that you have seen, some of you guys that hang out with me, i promsie to never stop being my old self. yeah that means more crazy things i do and causing trouble all the time like i did with friends..i wont be that troubled soul anymore. i told GOD and he wants me to show him i can be who i used to be.. im very sorry to those who didnt get the know a lot about me, but i will be that friend u can count on when u need them, even if it means to be there for comfort..im only a few miles away or even a phone call away.. i do care alot about people...but my plan and promise of never loving or dating anyone ever still applies, due to a long term promise i once made to a best friend. i wont break it no matter what..and i will follow through with my services to GOD every week. if i cant make it then i can always enjoy a reading from the bible. have a great day GOD BLESS take care
hi all...
i will stop the updating every day from now from my recent thoughts. i
have been wasting myself away for the last month. I just dont know
anymore. I dont even know why I feel sad. I woke up one day and felt
sad and it comes often. Its an off and on thing. I dont know how to
explain it. My thoughts are weird. I hope you guys leave comments. it
would make me feel a little better. I wont forget about you guys. I
will still be here but I have to find out what is wrong with me. Its
been getting worse week by week. I wish I knew but I am trapped
somewhere I dont want to be. I have given up on myself a while ago. I
gave up when I was 12 years old. I couldnt figure out what was going on
when I was moving somewhere else. I didnt know why I had to go and live
without my dad there. I only understood after. I was given psychiatric
help, but it didnt do anything. Every time the doctor asked if I loved
my dad, I just broke out crying because I did love him a lot. Thats
where I felt that I would begin my slow recovery from things. I never
really recovered from things. I tried to never think of it. I never
told anyone about it either. I did slowly tell one person everything. I
didnt tell that person all because I was afriad that if I said more, it
would make that person very sad. I tried not to let it get in the way
of things, but it did get in my way once my dad tried to push his way
back in my life. I sort of took my emotions out on myself and it kind
of shined on someone else. It made things bad for us and caused nothing
more than a horrible loss in life. I have loss everything in life
because it was the only person that I knew, which understood who
I was and no one else could ever get as far as the person did. that
person was one that knew when not to ask if something was wrong after
seeing that I didnt want to talk much. I know I did push how I felt on
that person because of how I was from how the day before or from the
feeling that overcame me then. I have to push myself along, hope for
the better and just sit and wait for something good to possibly happen.
my doubts are strong to thinking of the worse that could happen. I know
its not the best but I go for the worst so I wont feel too much pain
then, but it will slowly digest me. I know I never explained things
well because I thought I would lose friends and someone faster than I
could hold on to them. I have been hiding myself away from life outside
of the house. I been hiding from my fears. I dont know what I fear.
anyways i think I should stop cause I might be confusing many of you,
but I would love to explain anything more if you got questions.. dont
forget comments are good
